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[fox_confessor]

So, things you clearly need not to know but I'm waiting for some files to run and print.

This was a weird fandom week, in that I've read a lot of SPN. I've never actually seen SPN and when I saw a picture of Dean and Sam, I was reminded that I don't find them remotely attractive. (SORRY! I know some of you do. I don't find them ugly, just really not my type, is what I mean. I can totally see why others would find them attractive. It's like David Boreanaz. I can see it but I'm really not feeling it.) Anyway. I went into it for the kink because I have literally read every Suits fic out there (and reread and yeah, totally love the kink :D) and I oddly don't care for reading kink with Remus/Sirius (I have and I do on occasion but that's not what I look for when I read Remus/Sirius fic. I am all about the characterization and h/c). And I'm totally not interested in finding the really good (non-kinky) SPN fic, either. I apparently have a very specific SPN taste, and it is dirty as hell :D It's honestly too bad it didn't hit me with Teen Wolf because AO3 (the easiest place to find a specific kink) is flooded. I don't find those boys appealing either but for completely different reasons.

Anyway, I was reading these ridiculously kinky stories (I'm totally not saying what the kink was as I'm undecided how I feel about realllllllly getting into it. them. It was was multiple. Well, actually, it's more like one thing led to another and then hey! I didn't know I had that kink but apparently.) and all I want is for it (it being the specific scenario that I found most appealing and which held all the kink together) to be Harvey/Mike now. Which led me to think, would I write that? (you know, if I was writing). I've definitely written kink (mostly spanking, I suppose) and pwp but I get embarrassed by it when I think it's really dirty, you know? Which is weird. I have like a barometer--how dirty I'm willing to write and share. Blowjobs are good, no trouble there. Penetrative sex? Sure. Spanking, okay. Rough sex? yeah. Something somewhere makes me twitch though, like watersports, for example, which isn't what I was reading this week but I have read and enjoyed, particularly (or really, only) when it was Remus/Sirius and tied up with being possessive and it was a territorial werewolf thing (as in, it made sense in context--his kink explained). I guess that's kind of it. It's not that I'm into it as a "kink for kink's sake"--I wouldn't read any story or any pairing that featured that kink. I need the story. I need the kink explained and to have it make sense for the character in question.

Someone somewhere recently posted a ven diagram showing that what I think is okay in fantasy doesn't always align with what I think is okay in real life, and not in a "I'm in denial, I really want it" kind of way but jealousy? possessiveness? Not okay with me in real life and I'm squidgy about myself when I feel those emotions, even when it's just my french fries (which I seriously hate sharing, even if it's just one) but in fic? Bring it baby. I love when Harvey (just for example) "claims" Mike (really, just for example :D) and gets all possessive but in real life, I'd want to stage an intervention and get Mike out of there. I'm not feeling guilty about liking what I like but embarrassed a bit at some of it and working through that.

I was also reading SPN RPF because apparently I was being really indiscriminate about my SPN kinky needs, and found that the name Padelecki really throw me out of a story. Like, in the same way that seeing "then" being used when someone means "than" throws me out (it totally does). I was good with Jared but as soon as someone said "Mr. Padelecki" it just didn't work for me. It's really weird what the brain does. Also, who is Misha? He's the guy who looks like Karl Urban, right?

ETA: I'm up to speed on Misha now but I'm not the only one who thinks he could be Karl Urban's brother, right? That's not just me.

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[in-the-bottle.livejournal.com]

Misha = Misha Collins = insane (in a good way).

He plays Castiel on SPN. He would probably get into the kink with you since his wife literally wrote the book on threesomes. ;)

[juke-box-dive.livejournal.com]

Ah. Okay, so I guess I knew it was Misha Collins through fandom osmosis but I didn't know he played Castiel, whose an angel right (totally fandom osmosis if I got that right). I read a fic with Castiel in it last night though it was an AU so no hints there. Annnnnd now I have to find out what you mean by "literally wrote the book". No worries. I shall google.

[in-the-bottle.livejournal.com]

LOL! I'm the opposite. I've seen all of the ep up until mid-season 6 (catching up soon!) but hardly ever read any of the fics.

As in, she wrote a book on threesomes. That Charlie Sheen apparently made really famous by posting a picture of himself with said book. ;)

[juke-box-dive.livejournal.com]

Totally found it on Amazon (and made the mistake of reading some of the comments).

I actually missed all of Charlie Sheen's ridiculousness so I didn't know about the picture. The amount of popular culture I'm familiar with could fit on the tip of a pin. I suspect in this case, I'm not missing a thing.

So, I've hesitated watching SPN because I thought it would be scary (I'm a wuss). Is it "scary" like Buffy the Vampire Slayer, which I could watch because I found it more funny, or scary like X-Files, which I couldn't watch.

[in-the-bottle.livejournal.com]

It was practically all over my twitter feed so I couldn't really avoid it without putting a lot of effort into it.

Eh... Bit of both? There are definitely eps that fit under the "crack" criteria especially in s3&4 (I think) onwards. But there are definitely some that are a bit on the scary side. I got a bit of a shock here and there through s1, but pretty much got used to it after that. And XF was scary?? Really?? I mean, I found bits of it more disgusting (as in the gory bits, do they really have to use that much slime and its associated squelching sound effects?) rather than scary.

[juke-box-dive.livejournal.com]

Honestly, I saw about half of one X-Files episode so I was making massive assumptions. My mom and sister were big fans. I was way more easily frightened even five years ago than I am today so I would probably be fine with SPN but yeah, the special effect go gross more than scary a lot of times. The real question is do I actually want to go down that road since I'm already reading fic. I like my current fandom(s) and I'm not sure I want to be overwhelmed with all the feels, you know? In the five minutes of looking at pictures, I would definitely be all about Castiel/Misha. He totally looks like Karl Urban to me.

[in-the-bottle.livejournal.com]

LOL! SPN is one of those shows that I watch a huge amount of in one go (1 season per weekend) and then happy to leave it until the next season finishes and do that again for one weekend etc. As it is, I'm 2 seasons behind since I've just been busy and/or not in the mood for SPN.

Oh come on, Misha totally does not look like Karl Urban! At least not to me... *stares at pics of them both*

Nope, still don't see it.

Also, Misha's a troll, Karl is a geeky fanboy. ;)

[juke-box-dive.livejournal.com]

The internet agrees with me (http://cheezburger.com/4794447360) :D I just saw a gif of Misha though. I think in motion, they don't so much but in pictures I can absolutely see it. It's the jawline.

I totally prefer Karl, hands down. He was perfect as Eomer. You'll ruin Misha for me entirely if you tell me he's a Republican (or holds similar conservative views). It's such a turn-off. Annnnnd I totally just googled Misha troll ahaha yeah. This is a road I don't want to go down.

[in-the-bottle.livejournal.com]

LOL! Ok, fine... I think the fact that I've seen both of them in person at conventions helps with the telling them apart thing. Also, Karl and his Kiwi accent. ;)

Misha? Conservative??!?! In the mirror universe maybe!

[kiltsandlollies.livejournal.com]

Misha Collins is an intelligent, amusing, and damn fine looking man, capable of deeds of great evil and amusement at the same time. He's an A+ troll of his fandom, but uses his trollery for good. Don't look directly in his eyes; that way madness, etc etc. But anyway. He spends most of his time on the show in a trenchcoat so he's automatically okay in my book, yanno. Also, I believe his wife wrote a book on threesomes. It's all pretty excellent. (Says the person who's only seen two episodes of Supernatural, from the first two seasons, and has absorbed everything else through fannish osmosis.)

I need the story. I need the kink explained and to have it make sense for the character in question.

And this, to me, makes all the sense in the world, and makes you my ideal reader. Co-writer, too, obvs. <3

[juke-box-dive.livejournal.com]

All I know of Teen Wolf, which is a surprising amount, has been through osmosis. Also see: bandom. I have looked now, though, and Misha could totally be Karl's cousin. They are outfitted in similar jaw lines.

See, I doubted (and was troubled) because I didn't know the SPN characters and the writers were pretty interchangeable with both Jared/Jensen and Dean/Sam rather than (almost) always making the younger of the two the more submissive, and yet in all the stories that I chased to the end, the characterizations in the story always made sense. Just good writing, I suppose.

[msilverstar]

Fandom osmosis is amazing! I haven't seen any complete episodes of SPN, Teen Wolf, SGA or Suits, can't make myself watch them, but some of the fic is amazing.

New kink: I find myself surprisingly fine with brotherly love when it's Fili/Kili.

[juke-box-dive.livejournal.com]

I never know what SGA is. I've seen the acronym but I can't puzzle it out. StarGate? I'm sure when you tell me, I'll totally know it through the same osmosis :D

I'll admit that I didn't mind a bit of Elijah/Hannah every now and again but yeah, I've read some Fili/Kili fic that I've enjoyed. amuly has written some gen Fili/Kili that I've really liked, too. Even without sexy times, I rather just like the dynamic between them.

[msilverstar]

Yeah, SGA is Stargate Atlantis, which (according to a potload of fanon) had nice aspects like a couple of cute-but-flawed guys and their team, a semi-sentient city, and a lot of politics to go with their peril of the week. The original show fails in many ways, but the fanworks are amazing!